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Discomfort as Motivation

July 1st, 2007 · Posted by Who Knows? · 2 Comments

Publishing a blog is an interesting experience. Often it takes me less than a day to feel rather uncomfortable with what I wrote, other times a little longer. Looking back at old posts often gives me a rather uncomfortable feeling. (A quick aside: wow, déjà-vu…) Often I feel I want to delete some things I have already written, but I stand strong, and I leave it up, in an effort to find peace with my imperfections, in an effort to fight the perfectionistic urge.

It is an interesting journey. My discomfort with what I have written is in part what drives me to write more, to counterbalance old perspectives. It also drives me to reach further, to stretch more, and hopefully to wander ever closer to that ever elusive inner peace.

I think that inner peace is to be found in greater honesty towards everyone, but more importantly, also towards myself. Attempted honesty compels me to search further and harder for resolutions to unresolved matters, for answers to difficult questions. And my answers are an enigma, they change significantly if you just look at them funny.

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  • 1 Wendy // Jul 2, 2007 at 8:38 pm

    I know how you feel! There are many times that I’ve posted something on my online blog and I kind of wish I could take it back…that no one had read it. Luckily I do most of my real “blogging” in a journal, so it’s nice having the peace of mind that I’m the only one that reads it. But it is nice to sometimes get other people’s perspectives on your thoughts. So there’s a real toss up between blogging online and having a private journal intended only for your eyes.

  • 2 Hugo // Jul 18, 2007 at 3:22 pm

    Consider this post by RLP:

    http://www.reallivepreacher.com/node/1363

    And especially this anonymous comment made on that post:

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    Submitted by Anonymous User on July 17, 2007 – 2:11pm.

    The hard part about truth is not found only in the telling but also in letting it stand. I find that it is relatively easy for me to write a blog that is honest and upfront. I will post said blog and then hours later log back in to remove it. Why? Because I can say it but I can’t leave it. I can’t leave the naked truth out for all to see.

    I too long to write a story that is true, but half-truths and ambiguities are so much easier.

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